Crush

So someone just creeps into my life
slowly and stealthily
she owns a part of my mind
i start thinking about her

i feel like seeing her again and again

i make plans to spend time together

but

i dont know what does she think

i forgot all the plans and promises i have made for myself

and i probably do not deserve her

I'M HAVING A CRUSH AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO(AS USUAL)!!! T_T

About Me?

Dating Strengths	Dating Weaknesses
1. Spirituality - 92.3% 2. Friendliness - 68.8% 3. Generosity - 66.7% 4. Flirtiness - 62.5% 5. Varied Interests - 57.1%	1. Humorlessness - 62.5% 2. Appearance - 55.6% 3. Financial Issues - 54.5% 4. Lack of Essentials - 50%

Dating Strengths Explained
Spirituality - Your spiritual side brings you peace and balance, and keeps you grounded. This is attractive, as you can help reinforce this quality in other people. Friendliness - Your friendliness makes you approachable and fun to be around. A wide circle of friends also works to your advantage on the dating scene. Generosity - You are a giving person by nature. Others will see this quality in you and recognize your kind nature. Take care not to let others take advantage of you. Flirtiness - Flirting is a good way to break the ice, and you are a pro at it. Being flirtatious will open up many dating opportunities. Varied Interests - You don't limit yourself, and that's a dating asset. Your varied interests make you available and interesting to a wider range of girls.
Dating Weaknesses Explained
Humorlessness - You need to learn how to take a joke, or better yet how to tell a good one. A well-developed sense of humor is high on the list of desired traits for daters. Appearance - Devoting a greater effort at making good first impressions is a must. Try to be fit and develop a style if you want to catch a girl's attention. Financial Issues - Your financial situation is not in good shape, and this does not bode well for you on the dating scene. Try to get on top of your financial difficulties. Lack of Essentials - Dating is difficult for you because you lack certain key things, which may include private space, a car, money, or a nice wardrobe. Work toward obtaining these essentials!
Dating Strengths and Weaknesses Quiz

The Sign

 


I'm bad at reading signs, non-verbal ones.
Most of the times, I freak out 
thinking this is not right, people won't like that.


Anyway, if you are waiting for something,
this is it
GO 

Happy Mother's Day!

Drafted what to say to mom on Mother’s Day:

Ideal Scenario:

Hey mum. Happy Mother’s Day. I love you.

Actual Scenario:

Hey mum. Er…. How are you? Blah blah blah…

Proves that I’m Asian. Lol.

my mom.

just joking. Happy Mother's Day!

Detour

I could have walked the flat pathway
Where there would be no rocks
no thorns
no puddles
no holes


But I have chosen the other way
The more adventurous way
With treacherous snakes
thorned poison ivies
gloomy dark trees
dangerous booby traps
howling winds
steep cliffs
and sharp rocks


Yes
I endured 
the suffering of heartbreak
the sorrow of neglect
the despair of isolation
the angst of rejection
the coldness of the nights
the beatings of the rains of truth


And yes
I came back with wounds and scars
Underneath my clothings
People would see me as a fool
But 
If not for the detour
Would I have seen the beautiful sunrise?





I STILL miss the sunrise

Undone

I'm nobody

Nobody to her, anyway

But why?

Why is she a part of me?

For weeks I won't even let myself think about her

And it all came undone in 1 minute

I looked around 

to see where she is

to see what is she doing

Is she looking at me?

Blind hope

That's what i call it

I'm just a nobody

To her, anyway.

Yup, that's right, i deserve better, bitch.

Stay away from my mind, or I call the police.

oh yea, by the way,
I'm like the best thing you ever let go

Letting Go

When and how do you know to let go?
Will you keep holding on to the ends of the world?
Will you refuse to accept something less?
Or will you look for another shelter
Where you feel accepted?


It's time to let go
When you feel your life energy is depleting
because of something that you hold on to
is sucking the life force out of you
Instead of giving fulfillment to your life
You thought it was the missing piece of jigsaw puzzle 
you have been looking all this while
No it's not


Cry 
Tears of emptiness
You feel yourself weaken
Sleeping with eyes wide open
Dreaming dreams of dark abyss
Under the blanket of harsh coldness
Alone and deserted
When the first ray of sunlight appears
Embrace it
Feel the warmth
Leave 
And never look back





Let go
Even at the cost of a heartbreak